What happens after...

The person that Inspired all the craftiness in my family is gone. My grandmother passed away a little over two weeks ago leaving me with blank spot. She was sick but she had been before, the doctors say that it didn't look good but this time was for real.

My grandmother had been in and out of the hospital for about a year starting with fluid on and around her lungs. Given the fact that she had congestive heart failure, several critical aneurysms, one kidney(the other lost due to cancer over 20 years ago)that was failing, she had had triple by-pass not long before the cancer, and a pacemaker. These were the major things that she had wrong with her, so you can see where it was possible to think that this was just another time and that she would pull through. She would walk out, maybe not good as new but good enough to be around for a few more years. When the doctor brought the family together and said that we could continue to give her medicine to keep her blood pressure up or we could give her pain medication to make her comfortable and let God's will be done I was devastated. The family, including me, decided that keeping her around was for our own selfishness and made the decision. With her family around her and everyone able to tell her that we loved her we held hands around her bed and let her go to be with her daughter and siblings. It was hands down the hardest day of my life to date, it was hard to hear that I would never be able to hear my grandmother tell me that she loved me or to scold me, or to cook for me, or to make me a pair crocheted slippers, or tell me that she was proud of me, or pat my hand and call be Doll baby. She would not see her newest great grandson.

My sister is pregnant and is due in just a few days. My grandmother called my sister Lady Bug and worried about what she was going to call Eric David. About 2 weeks before she passed away we were sitting in the hospital and she decided on June bug. She wanted one of the small blankets with the heads attached to it embroidered with June bug on it for him. My aunt had it done and showed it to her the day before she passed away, because the next day we were having the baby shower for my sister.

The next day we had the shower despite that fact that my grandmother had passed. it was a bitter sweet day for all of us. It was hard to be be asked are you ok by everyone but it was a wonderful testament to the love of family and friends that they would care as they did for us.

Now we are left with my grandfather. A sweet God fearing 87 year old man that adored his wife and who has Alzheimer. He is in the beginning stages and most days is right there but on some days thinks my grandmother has gone shopping, or missing, or is visiting family in another state. So what do we do? At the moment we are taking turns staying with him in his home. We want to keep him in his home in things that are familuar to him. He also has two dogs that can't be taken to a facility. I know that if we move him that he will try and walk home. Who can blame him he has been in the same home for nearly fifty years. The plan that we are looking at is that myself, my husband, and our daughter will move in with him. It will help him and us. I was out of work for over a year and my husband is working sporadically at his job. In all honestly I'm kinda excited to move, we have someone that is ready to rent our house.

The Frugal American Housewife

"It is wise to keep an exact account of all you expend- even of a paper of pins. This answers two purposes; it makes you more careful in spending money, and it enables your husband to judge precisely whether his family live within his income. No false pride, or foolish ambition to appear as well as others, should ever induce a person to live one cent beyond the income of which he is certain. If you have two dollars a day, let nothing but sickness induce you to spend more than nine shillings; if you have one dollar a day, do not spend but seventy-five cents; if you have half a dollar a day, be satisfied to spend forty cents."

-Lydia Maria Child, "The Frugal American Housewife"

Merry Christmas

I'm such a blessed person! I thought today that in a day when I enjoy the giving part of the day that I have received so much. I was born into a family that loved me and cared for me(despite our flaws). I was encouraged to be anything I want to be. I wasn't giving everything that I wanted but I never wanted for anything. I was raised in a Christian home and had strong morals instilled in me. I was taught that the needs of others are as important as my own and if I had the ability to make someone's life a little better then I had an obligation to do what I could. I married a man that loves me with all he has and will do what he can for me. He tries his best most of the time. We have not had it easy but we are here and have a house to live in two sons, a daughter in law, a grand daughter and a grand son. We will be soon adopting a girl into our family and I can't wait.

My prayer each day is that it be blessed however God see fit and that is my prayer for anyone that may stumble into me.

I Love September!!

Ok before I start I have to say that I'm a Movie and TV buff. I will make no apologies for it, it has been the catalyst to several wonderful friendships. I love almost any genre, sci fi being my fave it, it is however poorly represented as of late. My guilty pleasure is reality TV, but I'm trying to limit the number of reality shows that I watch due to the fact of the impact it has on the entertainment industry. I think the impact of reality TV on the entertainment industry will be a topic of another post, this posts intention is to share my faves for the new season. I will warn you that I'm usually in the wrong side of a show and love the ones that are doomed.

My first I will start with my old faves:

Supernatural, if you know me you know that I LOVE LOVE LOVE this show. The eye candy alone is so worth the hour. I was late coming to this show in its 3rd season and have loved it every since. This year is its 6th season it saw a major shift in the show. The first 5 seasons were over seen by the creator of the show Eric Kripke. He(Kripke) said all along he had a 5 season arc for the show after seeing it to that point decided to step down to work on other projects. This move has made the fan base throw their hands to the sky and cry foul. The new show runner Sera Gamble has taken the fans wrath even though Kripke has stayed on as a writer. The season premier was not all that I had hoped it would be no great revelations, a season set up show was all I saw. It was good to see the boys together and a 6th season.

Survivor, this is a show again that I love to watch but it always takes me a few weeks to get into. I'm not sure that I like the Young vs the Old but so far they(Old) seem to be holding their own. The thing about Survivor that I have never understood, have you never seen the show before? Why would you go on the show and not know how the light a fire? If I even thought I was going on the show I would be in the back yard starting fire every night. Why would you wear a little bikini on a game show with any type of physical activity? If I was told that I was on the show I have 10 layers of clothes and all of them would be physical activity friendly.

Sons of Anarchy, this is a new old show I started watching this show about 2 months ago and have really enjoyed it. I have to include a warning label on this because it is a super edgy show set around an outlaw motorcycle gang. I think the appeal for this show, for me, it that when I was younger these were the types of guys that I was around. My husband had Pagan friends and I think it is a nostalgia thing for me. This gritty show follows this gang through the illegal gun sales, taking revenge, and running a porno business. The porno business was to make them legal, I found that hysterical. The show allows us to see the human side of these guys and takes us inside their lives making us sympathize with the characters and like most of them. I don't like the fact that I like them, they are criminals all of them involving their families and children in a life a crime.

I have found 2 new shows so far that I really like.

Hawaii five O, I remember the old version but not enough to compare the two. I like the chemistry between the characters. McGarrett is a hottie and the bantering between him and Danny is witty and entertaining. I like the Chin Ho character and the fact that Kona is his cousin. I was sure that they would get rid of Kona but she kicked some major bad guy butt this week and the end scene where the guys gave her a mock graduation made me think she will be around for a while. My mom said that it was a little violent, but you have to understand that my mom watches a tamer type of show.

No ordinary Famliy, I saw this tonight, after seeing the trailers it intrigued me. I was glad I watch it. It was a twist on the super hero storyline and I can't wait to see more of this show. It has Michael Chiklis, the father, who I remember from The Commish, I have always liked him for some reason. I don't know if actors understand that personal characteristic transcend the camera(again another post). Julie Benz plays the mom and she is one of those actors that you know you have seen her in something but can't remember what, for me it was Supernatural:) I liked the way that in this show the mother is the successful scientist and the father is dealing with the family issues at home. Kay Panabaker is the daughter an early teen dealing with the fact that her boyfriend is hunted most other girl in the school and she now has superpowers. I can't imagine that feeling. The most heartwarming storyline would have to be about the son JJ played by Jimmy Bennett, who play young James Kirk in the 2009 Star Trek movie. JJ is a kid that has a learning disability. He watches his family receive these incredible powers and he had gotten nothing. Then we see him in math class about to take his test, he looks up at the board and the complicated math problems reveal themselves to him. In writing this I realize that each of the powers are something that each of the characters wanted.

Well if anyone reads this it may make sense maybe not...

Went to the promo last night...as a chaperone with my sister we had a blast. It was like going to our own promo but without the stress. Didn't have to fine a date didn't have to stress out over what dress I was going to wear and what dress everyone else was wearing. I worn black capris and a black and white shirt, I worn this necklace that I made and you can purchase it at Etsy.

Rainy Days

This pictures fits for today in my life. Tonight I'm chaperoning my sons prom, it is one of the last big things that he will do before becoming an adult.
My husband and I adopted him when he was 12 and I guess that I feel that we didn't get the time that most parents get with their child. I'm very proud of him despite the fact that he had a rough start in life he is graduating with honors from school and going on to college. He has a lovely spirit about him, he is no angel but has a very forgiving heart.

"Life happens while you are sitting on the side of the road waiting"